Hurricane Brandon....

Wow I realized that things can change in a matter of instance. I went from being that happiest girl alive to being depressed again. Last night i recieved a text message from Brandon saying that we needed to slow down. I was really confussed by is and he ended up tell me he was still in love with his ex. I know that they went out for 3 and a half years and had a baby. I can understand why he would still be attached a little. But to tell me things like "he loves me" and all this other stuff. It felt like he was just leading me on. But anyways, My biggest mistake was telling Jake Sims about this break up... Because he called Brandon and was yelling at him and everything. Now Brandon is going to change his number because of me... I know that i mess up a lot but this thing right here... I will never be able to forgive myself for. I already lost Brandon one time to Brittini a while ago.. I just go him back and had to loose him again... I have realized not to take things for granted. I had just gotten out of the depressed state when Brandon came back in the picture and what happened last night can drive me back into that mode. I know everyone tells me " you are a prettysmart, and have a good head on your shoulders", "there are more fish in the sea." But the funny thing is I want Brandon.... He isn't like all the other fish out there in that so called sea. But anyways I am getting ready to go back to school... Even tho I have an hour left to waste and Lord knows I don't need it to think because i didn't sleep at all last night and I am not kidding all I did was lay there. Well everyone else have a great day. I know that i am going to try to live today like it's my last. Going to try to make everyday that great. Love and hugs to everyone.
Tara Renee Monholland