Thinking...

Wow...Thinking can get me into a lot of trouble...

I have realized a lot of things in the past few months living out here with my mom..I have only but a few select "true friends"... I can name them all on one hand. Since I have moved to my mom's I was in this depression. Noone around me knew it but I was there. I had to go from a town where I knew everyone and thought I had friends to a complete strange place where I knew noone. My so called friends back home never wanted to hang out with me. I just thought that it was because I lived so far away but i was completely wrong. Everyone that i called my friends in high school only liked me because of my grades. They didn't really like me. I wasn't allowed to do anything at all in high school all i did was sit at home and watch my step brother's kids for free. I had no life. I couldn't spend the night anywhere when i was actually asked... The only places i went outside of school was athletic stuff and church. Not complaining on church because that is a big part in my life... When i moved down here it showed me how alone i was. I had noone to call when i needed someone to talk to.. When i started school there was 7 of us in the class. I was the one everyone picked on and of course it's all girls so it was mean things they were saying to me.. Of course at the time i couldnt take up for myself so i let the walk all over me. Then when i finally took up for myself they weren't really mean anymore. They are my friends but if i ever need anything i won't give them a call... No offense on them they are just my school friends... Totally different from me. they like to party and things like that I on the other hand like to study and hang out with my parents... I have come to realize that true friends are hard to come by and when you do find one... You need to keep them as close as you can before they get away... Wow this is really long. and I haven't even said all the things I wanted to say... Dang I'll just post it on tomorrows...

Hugs to everyone Hope you have a great day